In the past year, I killed myself doing as many productions as possible with as many companies as possible and now I’ve hit a bump. I kind of want to be done. Done with singing? I don’t know. It is just hard to keep on working so much.
I’ve been singing with an Opera Company, XX XXX[i], for the past 3 years going on 4. My parts[ii] aren’t getting any better at this point and I sort of sick of it. They don’t make me want to come to rehearsal or perform with them anymore and I am sick of the director. She just makes me feel uptight and intimidated. Singing can be joyous and the joy is lost at XX XXX for me. If I get sick of anymore people maybe I won’t be singing with anyone.
That’s not true. I’m waiting to hear from 2 companies to see what they want me to do in the current season. I had so much fun with one of the companies last season that I can’t wait to find out what they are doing so I can be a part of it. I want to get somewhere and I feel stalled at the moment.
Right now, I do have Washington National Opera to look forward to at the end of the month, very professional and it is something I have been working on since I left college. It really means something to me to have gotten in after 5 auditions and after doing Virginia Opera, I am really anticipating having a great time.
[i] To protect my Live Journal from Google, I decline to name names.
[ii] I’ve been taking bit parts everywhere and few supporting roles which I certainly relish. With XX XXX, I’ve done a series of tiny roles. I had this horrible audition this year so I wasn’t surprised at not being cast. Later, I was offer another tiny role which I should have declined and didn’t.