I’ve been feeling down about my job lately. It hasn’t been the most fulfilling job in the world, nor did I expect it to be. This is not the field I want to pursue and I easily get frustrated at that field anyway. After five years, I probably should move on, but I don’t because I could hypothetically get an opera apprenticeship and if I could do that while keeping my day job I would so have it made. In truth, my job just doesn’t keep me busy and the day can be long. With more than a month of vacation and a month of sick, I could theoretically be off for two months which is what these summer programs entail. I’m kind of tempted to just go for a full 9 month program and say bye-bye to the job. I didn’t get any bites last winter, but hopefully the work I’ve put in this year will make people notice me.
My voice teacher and my vocal coach both think that I am heading in the right direction, but as always it is up to me. I need to do whatever I can to get into good voice and be ready for singing before stepping into those audition rooms. How can I cross the threshold from good local singer to up and coming Bass Artist? Sometimes, I feel as if I am treading water and I should just give up on this dream. The effort that I need to maintain is just so great that it is disheartening to receive rejection after rejection. I need another feather in my cap, now.